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What inspires you to blog?

The fact that I want to remember things later in life. I want to have a record.

Ohh
I got a call today
At 3 AM
It's what you didn't say that told me I'd get hurt again.
So I hung up the phone
and I screamed out loud
I felt so alone, I should had said the things I'm thinking now

Ohh never thought it would be so hard to let you go

Tell me how I'm gonna make it your the one I cant forget
It's like I'm running in slow motion in a nightmare that never ends
When I try to face it when I wake up I hate the way reality sets in
God I wish you could hold me, through the seven days of lonely.
(The seven days of lonely, yeah)

Oh it's deafening
The bitter truth
I'm doing everything for the first time again without you
I pretend I'm ok
But it aches inside
There's got to be a way that's better then just getting by

Ohh never thought it be so hard to let you go

Tell me how I'm gonna make it your the one I can't forget
It's like I'm running in slow motion in a nightmare that never ends
When I try to face it when I wake up I hate the way reality sets in
God I wish you could hold me, through the seven days of lonely.

My heart is speeding up and slowing down to know I know it's over, it's over
And can you die of heartbreak to die for love lost young I pray to find it again, oh again

Got a call today
At 3 AM
It's what you didn't say that hurts again

Tell me how I'm gonna make it your the one I cant forget
It's like I'm running in slow motion in a nightmare that never ends
When I try to face it when I wake up I hate the way reality sets in
God I wish you could hold me
Through the seven days of lonely
Through the seven days of lonely
Through the seven days of lonely
Through the seven days of lonely
Ohhhhhh

What are five qualities you value in your closest relationships?

Commitment. Trust. Compassion. Honesty. Strenght. Things like that really...

If you could teleport to any place in the world right this second, where would you go?

Moscow. Or St. Lucia's. Just to see.

What is the last thing that made you smile?

Silly but getting into bed at 8:00 p.m. last night and sleeping. Once my head hit the pillow, I was so comfy and happy. I just, smiled, lol. Sometimes having the time to sleep and being tired is just a great combination!

I never feared the unexpected
'Till I found myself in this peculiar place
Unaware of where I was headed
Turns out it was your footsteps I had chased

Well I should know so much better than this
But you've occupied the center of my universe

I'm moving in reverse
Under your mighty curse
I hate myself for loving you
I turn my head away
But my heart will remain
'Till the day I learn you're No Good for me

It's illogical and it's outrageous
The way I let you keep me hangin' on
Your character is that contagious
I know I should have thought before I had done
I've gone and let my impulse be my guide
And on that note I'll be defenseless for some time

I'm moving in reverse
Under your mighty curse
I hate myself for loving you
I turn my head away
But my heart will remain
'Till the day I learn you're No Good for me

Hey you there keep your distance
Don't you come around here
Don't test my patience baby
'Cause I aint gonna let you off easy

I'm moving in reverse
Under your mighty curse
I hate myself for loving you
I turn my head away
But my heart will remain
'Till the day I learn you're No Good
'Till the day I learn you're No Good
'Till the day I learn you're No Good for me

You're No Good, you're No good, you're No Good, you're No Good for me
You're No Good, you're No good, you're No Good for me

Ooh you're No Good
Ooh you're No Good
No Good for me

Is there anything you've done that you wish you'd apologized for, but didn't?

There's probably a few things. Mostly when I blow at people that don't deserve it. I say sorry, but not right away and I still feel bad so... It's not good.

Who or what do you really love?

- LiveJournal: It has all my good memories from the past two years. It's so valuable to me, my lj.
- My mom: She is above all my favorite person in the world. Even if I don't tell her everything, she's still important.

I don't know what else, but... Yeah...

I went on an interview yesterday for a stage for school. It was at a small, private, high school near my house. It was very professional and proper. Very good. Very prestigeous. I was nervous as hell but wanted to do good. So I go in, and waited. Then they took me into a conference room for the interview. It went well! They loved me, loved that I am editor of the school newspaper, and that I myself went to a private high school. They hired me for stage right there. I even met the director.

There's even a possibility of a job afterwards. They said if stage goes well, then there's a great chance that I'll be there perminantely or the elementary (A few blocks away) would take me on. It seems like a dream come true.

So just wanted to update and say yeay!

1. I've come to realize that my butt: Looks better now than it used to.

2. I've come to realize that when I talk: I babble a lot if I'm comfortable around you.

3. I've come to realize that, if I love someone (not family): It's all or nothing.

4. I've come to realize that I need: to learn to calm down and think rationally and not be so naive.

5. I've come to realize that I've lost: 40lbs since this time last year and I feel great.

6. I've come to realize that I hate it when: I'm not understood.

7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk: then that's not a good thing cause I feel sick.

8. I've come to realize that money: is a necessity. 

9. I've come to realize that: I can be loveable.

10. I've come to realize that I'll always be: too cautious.

11. I've come to realize that I have a crush on: the same guy I did last year.

12. I've come to realize that the last time I cried was: After I broke it off with my bf.

13. I've come to realize that my cell phone is: Vital.

14. I've come to realize that when I wake up in the morning: I am happier than I am any other time of the day.

15. I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night I: think about the whole day and mistakes I may or may not have made.

16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about: My exbf who is still my friend.

18. I've come to realize that when I get on Facebook: I'm wasting time.

19. I've come to realize that today I will: get prepared for my interview tomorrow.

20. I've come to realize that tonight I will: be watching tv.

21. I've come to realize that tomorrow I will: Make it or break it at the interview that could be it.

22. I've come to realize that I really want to: Move away.

23. I've come to realize that the person who is most likely to repost this is: Etiquette.

24. I've come to realize relationships: are worth it.

25. I've come to realize love: is something else.

26. I've come to realize my best guy friend(s): hate seeing me cry and can't handle it.

27. I've come to realize my best girl friend(s): understand the need to vent and not need to fix.

28. I've come to realize food: is good at times.

29. I've come to realize, when I'm a girlfriend I: am too posessive.

30. I've come to realize girls/boys: are such different species.

31. I've come to realize over the summer: that I can make myself happy before others can.

32. I've come to realize heartbreak: hurts more than anything else.